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Brain is sort of weird and unbelievable organ. It could helps to forget or remember things but it also play tricks by hiding some memories deep in one corner as if we have forgotten about it- similar to the virus where they tend to remain as latent state...
There are things that I want to let go even is hard but there is also thing that I wont be able to let it go until the day I leave this world.
I may young at that time but it has deeply engraved inside my heart and brain that I could remb that day, esp that mid- night...
Due to the external factor, it has been flashing through my head nowadays even though is not during that period of time. On and off I have been blaming myself on the fear that I had at that moment; feel sorry and compunction for nothing making thing turns better. Occasionally i would ask myself: " If i was not so young that time or I have knowledge on certain thing, would it diff from now?" Nevertheless, thing has happen and it cant be undone. All I have are those memories and feeling...
There are also thing that I want for let go though is not easy. I used to think that I am a kind of easy come easy go person but I found out that it only happen to me if I dont take it to heart; dont give a damn to it.
It's really difficult and challenging no matter how hard I have tried but I really want to let go so that I could start a brand new life. It just like a 'black spot' where it keep reminding me of thing that had happened though is something sweet at that moment... Sweet feeling don't last long and it will eventually turns sour and bitter which torture me mentally and emotionally.
Seem like I am emotional today... q
Lies give the deepest cut @ [4:09 PM]
My body is in a rebellious mood... Have been having on and off gastric pain for the past few days...
Nevertheless, I'm feeling better after throw up... =)
Few days later is my old friend birthday... After celebrating with her for 5 years, this year is the first year that I'm not celebrating with her...
Wish you
ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY, 老朋友!
Lies give the deepest cut @ [3:28 AM]
Suddenly feel that I'm standing at the edge of a steep cliff where I would fell anytime...
Lies give the deepest cut @ [2:54 AM]
There was a time where I asked myself what is life?
Lies give the deepest cut @ [4:11 AM]
There's time for tears,
a time for laughter,
a time for joy and
a time for grief... :'(
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